Black. Lives. Matter.

I’ve been sitting here with my computer open for a few hours. I’ve typed words, I’ve deleted them, I’ve sat here and thought if I should even write anything. What do I even have to say? Where would I start? What the fuck do I know about what’s going on right now? And the truth is, not much.

I’m a 28 year old white man. I haven’t experienced anything close to police brutality once in my entire life. In fact, I got pulled over for speeding in front of a High School, across from a police station, a week after getting my drivers license and the police officer laughed it off and let me go. No ticket. No nothing. Not even a stern talking to. All I got was a “Listen, I sometimes speed right around here too, just slow down okay?” I remember exactly what he said because I was scared shitless that I was going to lose my license and he would call my parents. Not once was I scared that I was going to get ripped from my vehicle and shot. I didn’t think it at the time, but looking back on it, what would’ve happened if I were black?

That being said, I do know one thing: our country is broken. It has been for a while. Specifically, white police officers beating the shit out of, and often times murdering, black people with little to no repercussions. Oh you’re suspended with pay? Sorry manIf you find yourself read that and coming up with a “yeah but…” you need to, respectfully, shut the fuck up. Just stop. If you can’t admit that simple fact, you are part of the problem.

As I said before, I’m not as educated on this as I should be. I don’t remember all the names of every black person murdered by a white cop. The fact that there are even so many names to remember is an embarrassment. But I don’t need to be black or be personally impacted by this to know that things need to change. People, WHITE PEOPLE, need to take a hard stance against racism right now. We are to the point now that if you stay silent, you are a part of the problem.

There’s no defense for what these cops are doing. I don’t care what that black person did to have the police there in the first place. Unless there is a gun being waved in your face or you are seconds from dying, you need to fucking control yourself if you are a police officer. How difficult is it to NOT murder someone? I’m pretty sure ‘restraint’ is something that every police officer possesses. Want to know how I know this is true? Look at how some of these white mass shooters have been brought into custody. Then take a look at how a man who apparently forged some checks got murdered in cold blood. Explain to me how restraint is used in one situation and not the other.

Police officers, in general, are not bad. A few “bad apples” spoil the bunch is the saying, right? But like Chris Rock said, there are some jobs that just can’t have any bad apples.

Bad apples don’t spoil the bunch in this case. Bad apples take lives. And that is unacceptable. It’s time for the police to change.

There is no middle ground anymore. There is no “well…why did the cop do that though? Where’s the entire video?” The time for benefit of the doubt is over. Cops are murdering black people in broad fucking daylight and no one is doing a god damn thing to change that. All we do is retweet the video with some bullshit hashtag, pretend to care for a few minutes and get back on with our day. Do you know who won’t be able to get back on with their day?

Travon Martin. Eric Garner. Freddie Gray. Philando Castile. George Floyd.

That is a FRACTION of the number of black people who have been murdered by police officers. And those are just the publicized ones. What happens when the cameras aren’t rolling though? How many more innocent black men and women have lost their lives due to a hatred that has been bred and cultivated over years and years?

I want to say sorry for coming off harsh here, but I’m not sorry. Things need to change. Tweeting your support for these people doesn’t mean shit. Do something tangible. Text/call your black friends and tell them just how fucking ashamed you are that someone the same color as you is murdering someone the same color as them. Because if you don’t have some feeling of shame for your race, you, as I’ve said many times, are a part of the problem.

I say what I just said, but the sad truth is, I’m a hypocrite. I do just that. I sit here and tweet and hope above all else that this insanity stops, but I know it won’t. I want to help, but I don’t even know where to start or what would have the most impact. I guess I could donate. I guess I could protest. But the screwed up part is, what is that actually going to do in the long run? How do you stop the systematic dehumanization of and entire race? People need to change. But how do you change someone who is so stuck in their ways that they are capable of taking another person’s life? This is what makes this entire situation so hopeless.

And just so we’re clear, if you are shouting from the rooftops that “ALL LIVES MATTER!” like I said before, please, from the bottom of my heart…shut the fuck up. Of course all lives matter, but by saying that, you are clearly missing the point. You’re lessening what is actually happening day in and day out to black people. How can ALL lives matter if BLACK lives don’t and clearly haven’t for far too long? It’s a pretty straight forward fact that many of you can’t seem to grasp for some reason.

Lastly, please stop telling these black people to protest in a different way. They tried that. It didn’t work. You can’t only ask one side to change anymore. Black people have tried to peacefully protest time and time again and what did that accomplish? Nothing. So what happens when they’ve exhausted every peaceful option? Violence. I don’t condone everything I’m seeing, but I can understand it. And if you can’t, then I don’t know what to tell you. You can’t continuously beat, murder and put down an entire race of people and then act surprised when they say “fuck it” and fight back.

So I guess those are my thoughts right now on what’s going on in our world. And to be honest, I don’t care to hear your side if it starts with “Yeah but…” or “Well, actually…” Just stop. There’s two sides here. Racism or change. What side are you on? It’s pretty simple.

P.S. With all the negativity going on here, I think it’s time we got some good videos and pictures, right? Here’s what I could find. I urge you to post, share, retweet, etc. any heartwarming videos you find that have to do with what’s going on right now. The world needs it. Stay safe.

“In times of crisis the wise build bridges, while the foolish build barriers. We must find a way to look after one another as if we are one single tribe”













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